UUgh I'm sitting here at my desk wondering how I'm going to make it 7 more hours. How in the world have I made it for 5 years at this job. My stomach is churning, my mind is racing.... how am I going to do it. I should be with Vin. I crave to be with him. Sometimes this feeling goes away & I accept my fate for a few hours or days, but not this morning. It is not natural for a mom to be away from her baby for so long. It does not settle well in body or soul. I must must must find a way to keep on with my plan to become a nurse. Then while I'm in school or a NA or LPN I can at least not have to work 8-5 and maybe come up with a schedule that allows me more flexibility or time with Vin. And for sure if I'm an RN I can work less than 40 hours and still earn plenty of money. I will rid myself of the jealously I feel towards the stay at home moms I know. One in particular, how does she do it? I have to remember she doesn't have student loans to pay, a house payment, a car payment.
Here is my plan thus far:
1. Stay at UNL through Dec so I can have Thanksgiving off, Christmas off, and New Years, plus my 3rd paycheck in Dec to pay off all medical bills
2. Apply to SCC ASAP
3. Look for NA jobs ASAP in Jan, hopefully begin in Feb.
4. start LPN school in fall or winter 2011 (Oct or Jan)
5. work as LPN by Oct or Jan 2012
Here are my goals as a mom
1. get along with scott and treat him respectfully
2. Be patient and calm with Vin
3. Laugh with Vin
4. provide healthy consistent meals and snacks for Vin
5. dance and play with ViN
6. Continue to work towards my goal of becoming a nurse & spending more time with vin
7. Write down notes about Vin
"Beegee Ouija"
11 years ago
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